NC A Place to Call Home

Don't Be Alarmed... Step Away from the Bag!

2011-07-07T22:53:00.000-04:00

A few weeks ago I was most blessed to travel to the Boston area with our youngest daughter, Jaime. This trip was Jaime's gift to me for my birthday! We spent the first day in Lexington / Concord, and on the second day we took the train into downtown Boston to walk the Freedom Trail. We were not aware when we ventured out that morning that we would be sharing Boston with over 2 million Bruin fans, who had all come to town to watch the Stanley Cup parade and celebrate with their team! This made visiting the historic sites easy as most of the people were in town for the Bruins!

We had enjoyed a great day together and we were coming to the end of the trail with only two more major stops to make. It was hot and we had been walking since about 10: 30 and it was now about 4:00 in the afternoon.
We arrived at the USS Constitution and couldn't decide if we wanted to actually go on the boat and go through security or just look at it from the pier. After a few minutes we walked to the end of the pier and took pictures of the beautiful Boston skyline. About this time we start to hear a loud, high pitched alarm. We thought it odd that no one seemed upset by the sound but kept doing whatever they were already involved with.

We decided to go on the boat and so we were willing to go through the tight security. We showed our picture ids, put our purses and camera bags on the x-ray belt and walked through the metal detector. All seemed fine and we were cleared. The last member of security who checked my id said he wondered what the alarm was about but sent us through.

When we arrived in the visitor center, we first went to the restrooms and then planned to tour the visitor center to learn more about the USS Constitution. However, all too soon a young man approached me. He was obviously an employee of the visitor center. " Excuse me, Mam, I think your bag is making a noise." I told him that it wasn't me and that my daughter and I had heard the sound outside, through security, in the restroom - and well just everywhere! He said, " Mam, It has been a long day and I don't have the authority to go through your bag - but your bag is making the sound." I became slightly indignant and told Jaime to take him outside and show him that the noise was OUTSIDE too and in fact EVERYWHERE! I sat down near the door and Jaime and the young man went outside!

A minute or two later they returned. Jaime, no doubt mortified by now, looked at me and said, "Mom - it has to be you- the noise is NOT outside NOW!" So then the young man looks at me and says, " Mam, is it your LIFE ALERT?" I said, "Son, I may be old, but I am NOT THAT OLD!" I start digging through my camera bag and there at the very bottom was - the personal alarm and whistle that I carry when I travel alone.I had forgotten that I even had it with me. I have never used it - and the alarm cord has never come out before!!

I started laughing so hard ... by now we had quite a crowd of people around us who thought that either I was some crazy terrorist out to destroy the USS Constitution - or just a pathetic old person! One of the joys of getting older is that we do not find things like this to be very alarming! :) I don't think I even apologized to the poor kid! I did apologize to Jaime! " Don't be alarmed Jaime, your mother is just getting old!" :)

Along the Way...

2011-06-11T21:42:00.000-04:00

Recently, I learned a valuable lesson about doing things when you first think to do them. For four years I drove past an old one-room school house -thinking each time I really need to take a picture of that building. Imagine my heartbeak when I drove by a few weeks ago and saw that a giant oak tree had fallen and destroyed the old school! So yesterday while driving home from the beach, I took the time to stop and take pictures of the things that caught my eye!

The Old South still lives in Eastern North Carolina! Yesterday on the way home from the beach I stopped and took a few pictures of things that caught my attention! This plantation house was the first stop ... along the way... somewhere near Maysville, NC

Harvest is near! This barn is located just outside of Trenton, NC

Oh the stories this old house could tell. Located in Trenton, NC - the old house no doubt holds the stories of many lives. I could spend hours thinking about the people who lived there.

NC A Place to Call Home: There she was with a pink and white flowing twirly little dress in the parking lot of Sam's...

2010-08-14T23:41:00.000-04:00

NC A Place to Call Home: There she was with a pink and white flowing twirly little dress in the parking lot of Sam's...

Resurrection in May by Lisa Samson

2010-08-14T21:11:00.000-04:00

Once again a Lisa Samson novel has completely captivated me. I invite you to read the latest of Samson's fine works.


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There she was with a pink and white flowing twirly little dress in the parking lot of Sam's...

2010-08-14T16:50:00.001-04:00

holding tightly to her mother's hand, barefoot on hot pavement. The child could not have been more than six or seven. A closer look revealed a slightly rumpled dress and hair only slightly less red than her mother's. The young mom, in her early twenties, held the girl by one hand and a small clear plastic box with the other. In the box were small resealable bags with peanuts still in the shells. "Mammm" she called out to me. "Yes?" "Mammm, we are trying to get some money for some groceries, would you be willin to buy some peanuts?' I gave her a few dollars and told her I did not need the peanuts and wished them well . She thanked me and headed the other way with the little girl in tow. I was clearly rattled as I headed to the entrance to meet my own daughter inside. As I returned to my car about 15 minutes later I looked for the pair. I wanted to take them shopping or bring them home or both. But I could not find them in the lot. I do not know if the mom truly just needed the money for groceries or if she was going to use the money for something else. How she was going to use the money was not important, what was important was the fact that she was there in the parking lot with her daughter in hand asking strangers for money. I wanted to do more, to help more but a plan did not come together at once and then when I had at least the beginnings of a plan, they were gone. I don't know if they will eat tonight or where they will sleep. I pray that she sold enough peanuts to at least provide food for them for today. I pray that someone else responded more quickly than me and that the pair will get a new start. God please protect the little red-headed pair.

Peace for the Journey by Elaine Olsen

2010-05-03T20:35:00.002-04:00

I invite you to watch the trailer for this beautiful new book released only today by writer Elaine Olsen! Elaine is the mom of a former student and her dear son contacted me today to tell me about the book! I cannot wait to read Peace for the Journey!

The Summer of '78

2010-03-27T21:45:00.000-04:00

The center of our great nation is not the place one always wants to visit in the summer and yet that summer a trip to visit family in Texas and Colorado seemed like the right thing to do. Traveling for weeks and long distances with two small children can be taxing to any parent but on this trip I was not feeling well and the visits remain a blur in my memory! While visiting in the Dallas area my illness was compounded with a terrible uti and I remembered that we had a friend from Bible college days who was now a doctor in the area. What I did not know was that the physican friend was a pathologist and so perhaps began what would later seem as foreshadowing in the story. It seems that even pathologists can write scrips and so I was able to obtain an antibiotic so that the trip might continue. I know we visited a brother in law in Texas and a sister in law and her family in Colorado, but where else and who else we saw will forever remain locked away in the back of my brain somewhere.

Upon returning home to the city of Chicago-life quickly fell back into a sense of normal for a few days. I still had the remants of an upper respiratory infection that I could not shake and traces of the earlier uti that the medicine had helped ,for awhile , had reappeared. I vaguely remember being at a church league baseball game and sitting outside at sundown, thinking that I was much sicker than symptoms seemed to indicate. The role of pastor's wife or in this case assistant pastor's wife was one that demanded mostly my presence at everything and my illness was no excuse to stay away from church services or functions. So I kept dragging myself and my two little girls to all the events of the week.

Returning to my two-night-a-week job as a nurse's assistant for a wealthy North Shore family was in some ways relaxing from a stress filled home and hours of relief from the demands of mothering a three year old daughter and a eighteen month old daughter. It was decent pay for the time and it was 12 hours worked twice a week that seemed the easiest to be away. I worked from 7 pm until 7 am usually on Tuesday and Thursday nights... the nights most often void of church services or activities. This was also the time that the girls were usually asleep and so not to much work for their father. On my first night back at work, the other nurse I worked with noticed that I looked sick and sent me to bed once our patient was asleep for the night.

When I awoke the next morning the first thing I sensed was that the outside of my hands and feet were numb. I tried to shake the numbness away thinking that my hands and feet were asleep as though I had slept in a strange position causing them to fall asleep. When the numbness did not go away I thought that maybe I had pinched a nerve. By Thursday of that week the numbness had spread to my face and I was getting concerned. It was as though the face had been given novacaine like the dentist might give for a filling. Afraid to return to my patient because I thought that I might be carrying a contagious disease I visited a family doctor who assured me that I was a tired pastor's wife and mother and that there was nothing to worry about! I returned to work and woke up on Friday morning feeling more numb and as though my limbs weighed hundreds of pounds. I was becoming more fearful by the hour... to be edited and continued

Blogginess and Purpose...

2010-03-23T20:00:00.004-04:00

My blog has been blogged down since last August,not that I do not desire to blog, and not that I do not have things about which to blog, but mostly because the blog seems to have lacked purpose! My original purpose in starting the blog was to write about my family and odd upbringing... this was met with some resistance.. A few who wrote comments thought that this was to much information. However, if my family is ever to know the story it would be wise to journal it somewhere. I could limit my postings to just a few family members, but a wider audience may well benefit from the testimony shared in the telling of these stories. So it is back to square one on my blog journey.
Recently, I shared with some of my students, as I do almost every year, some of the story of my miraculous recovery from Guillian-Barre Syndrome. They said I should write a book... perhaps I will and perhaps it will begin here!

Out of Africa...

2009-08-23T11:27:00.010-04:00

It is a lovely, rainy, misty, Sunday morning here and I am listening to the soundtrack from Out of Africa. It has to be one of my all time favorite movies. Not so much for parts of the story line, but for the expansive sceanery and the amazing musical score. Africa has always drawn me, as it did my mother. Thelma always longed to go to Africa to see the zebras. That's all, she just wanted to go and see the zebra's. It is a wish that was not fulfilled in her lifetime, but as is so often the case, it has been somewhat fulfilled in the lives of two of her grandchildren. I do not know if either my son Daniel or his twin sister, Jaime have viewed zebras while in Africa, but they have been there! This morning my son Daniel is in the heart of Africa, visiting Uganda for the second time doing humanitarian outreach work and my daughter Jaime lived in Egypt for almost a year working with a linguistics agency.
So what draws me to this dark continent, as it was once called in school books of long ago? I am not sure, only that I have always wanted to visit, to see the people, the lovely faces of the children, the land and its animals too, I suppose. But the stories I have read, often stories of survival and of the lives of people who went there early on, have always captivated me! Early missionaries and colonists worked tirelessly, persuing a passion for the seemingly impossible. In the book Out of Africa by Isak Dinsen, she speaks of having been mostly a 'mental traveler'. A mental traveler sums it up well for me, for up until now that is mostly what I have been when it comes to travel to foriegn lands. A mental traveler can go where ever she wishes and the pictures in the mind are free to be as beautiful as can be imagined. But there is another side to Africa that frightens me, it is the side of hunger, starvation, unimaginable poverty, sickness, revolution and war. Perhaps that is the Darkness that is referred to when many speak of this large continent. I am so glad that two of my children have gone and been willing to see and experience both sides of Africa. They have been willing to embrace its beauty and its poverty, its people and their heartbreak. A new generation is going to tackle what those of us who have only travel in our minds have yet to see. Photos of Uganda by Dan Ford so far without permission! :)

"A Life Lived Small but in a Big Way"

2009-07-13T19:06:00.016-04:00

I want to take a moment and make a few comments about my friend Kathy Sutherland who passed away on the 4th of July this year!
Kathy's obituary cannot begin to let anyone know what she meant to the many lives she touched!
Read my thoughts following the obituary.
Name: Kathleen L. Sutherland
Date: November 22nd, 1946 - July 4th, 2009
Obituary: Kathleen L. Sutherland, 62, of Browns Mills, NJ, went on to her eternal reward on July 4, 2009, at Samaritan Hospice in Mt. Holly, NJ, after a valiant battle against cancer. She devoted her life to service at Lighthouse Christian School and then at Deborah Heart and Lung Center in the Food & Nutrition/Environmental Services Departments. Wife of the late James Sutherland, she is survived by her children, Kari Mauerman, Marissa Sheley, and Matthew Sutherland; her grandchildren Claire, Lucy, and Jack Mauerman; her sister, Marie Lehar; brothers, Edward “Skip” Kowal, Francis “Bud” Kowal, and Chris Kowal; and her mother, Elizabeth Kowal. She is also survived by several nieces and two sons-in-law. Friends and family are invited to celebrate her life on Thursday, July 9, at Lighthouse Tabernacle in Lumberton, NJ. A viewing will be held from 5-7pm with a service beginning at 7:15pm. Rev. André Mauerman will officiate. Interment will be held 10 am on Friday at the Mount Holly Cemetery. Family will greet friends following the burial at Lighthouse Tabernacle. Donations in memory of her life may be made to the Deborah Hospital Foundation, 20 Pine Mill Road, Browns Mills, NJ 08015. Arrangements under the direction of the Perinchief Chapels, Mt. Holly. (www.perinchief.com)

When I first moved to New Jersey in 1986, I was a suddenly single mother of five children. I had been married for forever it seemed, but now I found myself in the new world of single parenthood. When I first started attending Lighthouse Tabernacle Church, Kathy was one of the first people who made me feel welcome. We both belonged to a great group of single women and Kath was often the voice of reason, like when some of us thought that doing something crazy would be fun! Nothing like watching a bunch of 30 and 40 year old women riding loudly in the back of someones pickup truck through the streets of Moorestown, NJ.. hmmm!
We worked together everyday for the three years that I taught at Lighthouse Christian School. Kathy had a gentle, quiet, strong presence that always amazed me! She had been widowed when her children were quite young and Kathy became my true mentor and friend. She was an amazing school secretary and touched so many young lives.
Kathy never appeared rattled, I never heard her complain about anything or anyone. She lived simply and gave her children a wonderful foundation of faith and a left them a legacy of love.
In recent years, we often joked about the fact that we rarely saw each other except in ICU waiting rooms and at the funerals of mutual friends. I could always make her laugh when I would remind her that the first letters of funeral spell FUN! (sorry-it is just how my brain works sometimes!)
By the time Kathy became ill, my family and I had relocated to North Carolina and so when I learned of Kathy's home going, I was unable to attend her funeral. But I do know this, we will get to see each other again one day in Heaven. There will be no sorrow, or tears or pain- only rejoicing before our Lord!
Thank you Kathy, for the example you set for me.
I will miss you and I will see you in a bit.

A Long Day's Journey ...

2009-07-13T18:44:00.004-04:00

It has been exceedingly long since I blogged! No excuses really except perhaps a lack of bloggy focus :) But it has been a glorious summer and my mind,spirit, and heart are rested and well! Seems like a good time to replace fogginess with blogginess. I have decided to set apart the history posts on their own site and I will give you that information soon. I will be uploading some new fun pictures depicting the wonder of summer! So just what have you been up to?
Blessings,

Susan

Not Me Monday!

2009-02-16T16:45:00.005-05:00

While enjoying the blogginess of others it is NOT possible that I have have not blogged since the beginning of January! No not me! I have been following a fun blog whose author always treats us to a "Not-me-Monday" post. She also asks us to join her in hosting our own "Not-me-Monday" post. So here I go ready or not!

Since I last joined you my friendly blog readers, the following has NOT happened to our family!

Our son-in-law was certainly NOT hit by a truck while training for a marathon! And of course since he was NOT hit by the truck -he did NOT have his elbow broken, followed by surgery with NOT 1 screw but 2 and 15 staples! NO not in our lifetime!

My precious husband who was out chopping wood for my fire-did NOT connect the axe and a large log to his large toe! NO NOT HIM! And the picture is a figment of your imagination!

Our 3rd daughter, who is expecting any minute certainly did NOT go into early labor only to be sent home from the hospital a few hours later! NO SHE DID NOT! And because she did not have the baby early, I MOST certainly will NOT be winging my way later this week to the windy city to witness the birth our 4th grandbaby! :)

On Valentine's Day my dear husband did NOT bring me a full giant heart full of yummy chocolates... and because he did not bring them I have not eaten my way into a chocolate stupor, NO NOT ME!

On this delightful 4 day holiday weekend I HAVE MOST CERTAINLY NOT AVOIDED GRADING PAPERS and doing LESSON PLANS! No not me!

I have not stayed up to late, I have not exhausted myself from hours on facebook,bloglines, and twitter! NOPE NOT me!

Having completed this assignment! I am now free to continue my NOT ME MONDAY PRESIDENTS DAY!

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

The Horse Drawn Trolley Comes to Goldsboro

2009-01-04T09:40:00.016-05:00

For the second year we were able to take our two oldest granddaughters, Anna Marion and Emma Grace, to ride the free horse-drawn trolley, and to see the lights in downtown Goldsboro. These are some bullet thoughts and a few shots from the night!
* COLD
* A LONG WAIT IN A LONG LINE
* ONE CUP OF HOT CHOCOLATE SHARED BY ALL
* A LONG WAIT
* DID WE MENTION COLD? ( well, cold by Goldsboro standards)
* CHRISTMAS LIGHTS
* HORSES
* A WAGON
* FINALLY OUR TURN!
* A HAT FLYING OFF INTO THE STREET
* A GOOD SAMARITIAN RETURNING THE HAT VIA DRIVE BY TOSS

* A SWEET GRANDPA TELLING US THE STORY OF THE HORSES

* A MEMORY MADE

* HOME BY BEDTIME

Hands

2009-01-03T19:02:00.005-05:00

"Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might." Ecc. 9:10

Hands have always fascinated me! I love the dimples in baby hands. I love watching young children use their hands to master the use of crayons and pencils. I love watching my husband's hands when he plays the piano. I remember holding my Uncle Harry's big, rough hands and coming to the realization that his hands were both rough and gentle at the same time. I remember playing with and pulling at the "chicken skin" on my grandmother's hands and thinking that surely I would NEVER get wrinkly skin like that! I would sit for hours and watch the blacksmith's hands as he would shoe our horses.

One of my favorite Peanuts cartoons from years ago was a strip about Hands. At the risk of causing Charles Schultz to spin in his grave I will attempt to do the strip justice. Charlie is walking along rather proud of himself and he holds his hands up, looks at them and declares that "these hands will do great things, these hands can save the world... etc." Well, you get the point. He continues with his dialogue about his hands when Lucy comes along, takes one look at his hands and says; "They have jelly on them!" Suddenly dejected, Charlie Brown walks away hands in pockets with his head down.

In the span of my life time my hands have washed thousands of dishes, washed cloth baby diapers using an old fashioned scrub board in a bathtub. These hands have used an old fashioned wringer washer, and have tried to send the hands through the wringer! These hands have kneaded bread, pulled weeds, "mucked" horse stalls, groomed horses, painted walls, cared for patients in hospitals, scrubbed floors by hand on hands and knees, these hands welded Zenith television chassis, played games, cared for children, have taught kindergardeners to write, cleaned factories and empty apartments and the list could go on and on.

Most of the time I can say that whatever my hands have found to do, I have done with all of my might. If hands could talk what a story they would tell. I would still love to learn American Sign Language which is an amazing use of the hands. I am sure there is still plenty let for my hands to do... but today I realized that I have "chicken skin" on my hands, my hands are now as old as my grandmother's were when I would pull on the loose skin on her hands.

But that is okay, these hands can still do great things, even if they have "chicken skin", even if they have jelly on them!

Welcome to the New Year!

2009-01-01T16:13:00.002-05:00

Essayist John Burroughs once said "One resolution I have made and try always to keep is this: To Rise Above the Small Things~"

I think for the coming year this would be a wonderful resolution indeed.

When I began this blog almost a year ago, I could never have imagined how much would happen in that time. One of the things that slowed me down this year was that I often allowed the small things to consume my think time. And so for the coming year I, along with Burroughs, will attempt "To Rise Above the Small Things"!

What are the small things that keep you from rising?

Perhaps the Last Post of 2008

2008-12-31T18:59:00.002-05:00

...but I have the entire night to reflect and so maybe it won't be the last post of 2008.

Earlier today I shared the following over at Antique Mommy's blog in response to her question about what would we remember about this Christmas.

I will remember this Christmas with a slightly sad yet grateful heart. What I will remember sadly is that for the first time in the lives of my 5 children they were not all physically’together’ for Christmas. But at least we were just a phone call,a text message,an IM, or even a web cam away from each other. One with a high risk first pregnancy in IL, One with a collapsed lung in a NJ hospital, One trying for 4 days ,stranded in an airport, to get home. One family with three little ones with pink eye and a stomach virus, and one family with a bad case of flu. Oh and have we shared the above love with others! :)

I will remember that for those of us who were together (sick as we were), we laughed and played and made the best of being together even in times of ‘not so great’!

I will remember that on the night that our Savior was born, Mary and Joseph had to travel outside of their comfort zone, they were away from family and friends, their lodgings were less than AAA approved, and yet there in the hay far from their home, a miracle, Christmas happened right there as that little “Stranger in the Straw” was born.

So yes, I will remember with a grateful heart, that regardless of our circumstances, Christmas will still be Christmas even if only in our hearts.

The First Decision of the new year, or the last decision of this year!

2008-12-30T20:02:00.007-05:00

Given where we now live, going to NYC for the big crystal ball drop is probably not going to happen. Although this New Year's Eve, I am told that NYC is bringing in the coolest portable toilets! But I digress- here in the south we do things just a little differently. I must decide whether to go the Raleigh for the giant copper ACORN drop, (With droppings (( you know what I mean)) at 7:00 for the kiddies and 12:00 for the party goers), or should I go to Mt. Olive, home of the Mt. Olive pickle company and be there for the giant pickle drop?

Now if I still had small children at home I might lean towards the ACORN. But since I am older and very fond of pickles (although the story does not specify if the pickle is a Sweet Baby Gherkin, or a baby dill. I lean towards the sweet gherkins variety!) and since Mt. Olive is just down the road apiece, I guess the pickle drop would be my 1st choice. I know we won't have Dick Clarke or Ryan Seacrist for that matter. But perhaps the mayor will be there or the CEO of said pickle company. This one thing I know, 2009 is going to arrive regardless of what drops from where. And with the new year we all have new opportunities to make a change and a difference! Just like the differences that Raleigh and Mt. Olive are making with their unique answer to those in NYC! VIA LA DIFFERENCE!

Christmas Past...

2008-12-06T19:53:00.002-05:00

It was the Christmas of 1950 in a tiny third floor tenement apartment in Pawtucket, Rhode Island. This was my first Christmas with Thelma, my then twenty something-single-mother. We had just come home from Plymouth, New Hampshire, where I was born in less than auspicious circumstances, in a hospital which has since been torn down, I might add. My grandmother had allowed Thelma to fix-up the tiny third floor attic apartment where we could live! As angry as my grandmother had been that my mother had become pregnant, all it took was one look at me to melt her heart! I can have that affect on people! :)

This is the early version of the porta-crib! Notice the statue of a saint in the window... this was during my short lived Catholic period, followed by the longer Episcopalian period.

In 1952 Santa and I had a great deal to talk about! When we gave a copy of this picture to my great-grandmother she proceeded to tear Santa out of the picture because, as she said "We don't know him" and indeed we did not!

Well, Santa came through and I received the BIG dolly I was longing for! Isn't she cute? Aren't we both cute? Check out the wallpaper and sofa contrast in flowers... my my my!

Christmas in 1955 or 56 in Miami, Florida and the last Christmas I would spend with my mother for many years! The next several Christmases I would spend surrounded by 15 or 16 "strays" all living in the care of Harry and Marie Ingals on 101st Street on the Northwest side of Miami, just over the bridge from Hialeajh. Those Christmases would the most secure of my childhood.

Wherever you spend this Christmas I pray it will be safe and secure and full of love and spent with those for whom you care deeply.

100 Things That Make, Me Happy, Joyful and Thankful!

2008-11-26T08:03:00.003-05:00

I was challenged by a fellow blogger and so this morning I have had so much fun thinking about these things... I am sure there are hundreds more but this will get you started! I wish each of you my readers a blessed Thanksgiving day. What makes you happy,joyful and thankful?

1. The sounds of birds in the backyard
2. The smell of fresh coffee
3. The feel of sand beneath my feet
4. The crunch of leaves in the fall
5. That picture of sun rays coming through the leaves on the trees with dust particles dancing on the rays.
6. The donkeys in the field near our home
7. The taste of the bacon, lettuce and tomato sandwiches that my mom used to make for me.
8. Seeing my grown kids laughing with each other
9. Having my husband spoil me the way he does
10. The sound of the tea pot whistle
11. The look from students when they ‘get it’!
12. Talking with good friends
13. Starbucks, grande skinny green tea latte, iced, with extra ice on the side please, and with a shot of espresso sometimes
14. Starbucks, grande skinny vanilla latte
15. Singing at church
16. Watching my grand kids ride in the wagon with G-pa
17. Reading a good book that I can’t put down
18. Staying in my pajamas on a day when I am not sick
19. The smell of clean laundry fresh out of the dryer
20. The smell of burning leaves in the neighborhood
21. The sound of the surf hitting the beach
22. Watching the waves roll in on a stormy day
23. The feeling of pride in a job well done!
24. Clean bathrooms
25. Fresh crispy sheets on my bed
26. Riding in the car on the back roads with my husband
27. Looking at the Rockies as you approach from Kansas
28. Seeing the Grand Canyon
29. Waiting for ‘Ole Faithful to erupt
30. The amazing joy of seeing each of my five children brought into the world healthy and the sound of that first cry
31. Seeing my old high school after forty years
32. The ‘discovering my roots’ tour with Sandy Hay
33. Listening to my mom laugh and talk when she was still alive
34. Spending the time right after work with my husband, having coffee, watching the news each evening.
35. The feeling that a fire in the fireplace gives me
36. Seeing historical sights and markers anywhere
37. Reading about the history of the places I have lived
38. Giving God the glory for my recovery from Guillian-Barre over 30 years ago
39. The memories of going to the mission field in Anguilla,St. Martin, Mexico City, and Puerto Rico
40. The joy of watching my kids travel to other mission fields
41. White fluffy terrycloth bathrobes
42. My amazing new bookcases, lovingly handcrafted by my amazing husband
43. Seeing each of my girls get married in amazing weddings each of their own design and personality
44. Remembering times at the alter in Bible college
45. Remembering all the people who took my kids and I in when we were on our own!
46. The joy of purchasing new furniture for the first time EVER last year!
47. The joy of signing papers on our 1st EVER home purchase last year!
48. The amazing story of how our kids surprised us with an extreme home make over before we moved in!
49. The feeling I get every time I drive up to my house!
50. Remembering the awesome trip home from Florida with my friend Carole- reading Lisa Samson’s book Women’s Intuition –aloud to each other all the way!
51. Remembering the trip by myself driving my 1987 pick-up truck all the way to Florida taking back roads and finding places I had lived as a child and discovering St. Simon’s for the first time. Incredible!
52. Staying overnight in Theime’s funeral home in 1971 being scared to death by the guys living there. Sleeping on sheets from the morgue! Ah!!
53. The miracle of wireless Internet, digital photography and the whole cell phone thing
54. The way my classroom smells after I clean it and put in new air fresheners
55. Decorating my classroom
56. The joy of owning special 1st editions of special authors and missionary books!
57. The taste of the first hamburger of the season from the grill
58. Meeting up with Carol Miller and Debby Kitts after 35 years and spending three days talking and laughing!
59. The thrill of knowing I have the whole summer off from school!
60. The joy of doing our taxes and getting a tax refund!
61. The fun of learning our way around a new town and a new culture!
62. The way a new baby snuggles and how a clean baby smells.
63. Knowing what Christ did for me!
64. Seeing my old teachers at the 40th reunion
65. Seeing Jo Daughtery my old high school youth group leader from church!
66. Seeing my high school friend Robin at the reunion
67. Listening to Garey play the piano
68. Listening to Garey play the drums
69. Getting my teeth fixed!
70. The feel of getting a manicure and pedicure
71. The feeling of walking out of the hair salon with a new cut and highlights
72. Traveling with Leslie and the Buoy Babes to Hilton Head
73. Seeing the whole family at the Christmas House!
74. The day I graduated with my Master’s Degree in 2007!
75. The day I FINALLY finished my Bachelor’s degree in 2005
76. The day Garey and I were married
77. Going to ‘Nana Camp’ at the beach with the grand kids!
78. Pecan pie
79. Watching parades – especially the bagpipers
80. Occasional football games
81. Blogging, Twittering, Facebooking, Texting (are those words?)
82. The smell of bacon frying
83. The excitement of our school accreditation visit going extremely well!
84. The joy of knowing I did a good job creating the Curriculum guides for the whole school, for every subject!
85. Surprises!
86. Fresh flowers
87. The thrill I used to feel whenever the yearbook made deadline.. and even more exciting when the books won awards!
88. The feeling of a good work out at the gym!
89. The way I used to feel riding horses across the fields in California
90. My old stuffed animal Starvel
91. Many of our pets through the years.. happy and sad
92. The way the house looks when it is especially clean!
93. The way house looks decorated for Christmas!
94. Remembering my Nana..
95. Knowing that getting older is a joyful thing!
96. My kitchen – even though I don’t really like to cook!
97. The pride I feel in each one of my children, Stephanie, Jennifer, Amanda, Jaime and Daniel!
98. The love I feel in my heart for each of my children, their spouses, my grandchildren and for my husband.
99. God’s grace on my life
100. Looking forward to Heaven – in about 32 + years!

Procrastinators's dream...

2008-11-16T09:22:00.007-05:00

"Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task."
- William James

One of the things that keeps me from blogging as regularly as I would like to is that I procrastinate! Yes, it is true... I stall at getting started. And why after 58 years should this come as revelation? It is not revelation at all... I am the one who came within 3 credit hours of earning a degree in 1972 and then did not complete it for 33 years! But then I finished my master's degree in just under two years, so go figure! I am the one who purchased 50 yards of quilted material about 35 years ago to make place mats for everyone I knew and then made one set; gave out IOU's for the rest and proceeded to carry that 50 yards of material around the country with me for the next 30 years or so until I gave up and gave the whole shootin' match to someone else to finish. I am the one who learned to "hook" rugs from a kit, and after making one 12x12 square thought that I would hook rugs for the world and so purchased little rug kits for many, many people ... and well you get the picture. I purchased and gave "empty" scrap books to my children several Christmases ago with the promise of putting the pictures of their lives onto the pages and so far I have moved the scrapbooks (still empty) to two different states. I mean, I am the parent who has a barely - started baby book for child number 1, an empty book for child number 2, and no book at all for children 3,4, and 5 (although I think I did have calendars with stickers to show when they took their first steps etc.) . I buy cards for sick friends and fret over what to write so I can say the perfect thing and then do not send it until it is too late and they have already passed away! (This has really happened.. and just to show my friend Anne that I was thinking of her mother, I finally sent the cards.. years after her mother's death!)

Now in fairness to me there have been some mitigating circumstances... 5 children... total paralysis...(not the mental kind either) ... many moves...multiple jobs... oh and did I mention 5 children? But in reality procrastination seems to have come in my gene pool with a side order of perfectionism. There they are - the destructive fraternal twins... procrastination ism and perfectionism. Why even start something if it is not going to be perfect? I started this blog with the very notion that it indeed did not need to be perfect and then all it took was one off-handed quasi-critical comment about my bad spelling and grammar and since then fear has kept me from sitting down and blogging very often. Now the truth is that I know that my brain runs much faster than my fingers and so in my haste to spill the words onto the page, I often make mistakes. I tend to write like I speak-- in bits and pieces. But another part of my brain says... If you aren't going to make it perfect then don't even try! There has always been a war within me about things like this.

When getting ready to go on a trip I will procrastinate until about 9pm on the night before and then start cleaning like a woman possessed. I usually begin in the bathroom with the grout.. because, you see, if I die while on vacation and someone has to come into my house -- heaven forbid they should find dirty grout around the tub... next is the oven... then the mattress pads and clean sheets. I try to wash, dry and fold every piece of fabric in the house. I empty the trash and wash the trash can out. I vacuum and dust. Run the dishwasher, clean out the refrigerator and somewhere around 3 in the morning I decide to pack! My poor husband learned long ago that if he is going to get any sleep at all (he wisely goes to bed at 9:00pm) then he needs to make sure I take all luggage and clothing out of our room and into the living room where I can go through my OCD pre-travel ritual. All so that in the event of my demise... people might find my house "perfect"? Am I nuts? These would be the same people who already know that I am far from perfect! Now my husband will awake in the morning (@4:30 like always) refreshed from a good night of sleep, he will shower and pack his gym bag with about three days worth of clothes, turn off his computer and he is ready to go! (This took him about an hour-including his shower,coffee and breakfast). While I am still running around on about 2 hours of sleep, unplugging EVERYTHING, plugging in light timers, in an ridiculous attempt to make the house look occupied even though the WHOLE neighborhood knows we will be gone. This is why I don't travel very much.
I could write for days about how I procrastinate grading papers and writing lesson plans, but we can save this for another day.

So what on earth am I trying to say here? I don't think I will ever get over the procrastination/perfectionism dilemma. This blog will never be perfect.. it will still be sporadic because I of course still want it to be perfect and so will not write down half of what I would like to. Does any of this make sense to you? I have run spell check about four times so far. So do I publish this or not? Should I take a chance and run the risk of public criticism? You decide.... oh yea.. I will have to publish for this to happen.... hmmmmm I will re-read this a few times and think about it and then decide.

"Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task."
- William James

Post Election Let Down Syndrome

2008-11-09T22:17:00.002-05:00

Now that the election is over and we have a new bevy of elected politicians and a new president- elect, I believe I am experiencing post election let down syndrome. For almost two years we watched with interest as a parade of would be nominees made their way across our states and our television screens. For months we watched and taped the primary debates with a cast of characters on both sides of the aisle. We watched the conventions of each party as they selected their nominee. We listened to pundits rattle off endless issues and non issues. In the last months of the campaign we were inundated with more commercials than I thought even possible. We saw the mud being slung, character assassinated, and a liberal media crown their heir apparent. We watched a number of firsts; glass ceilings were cracked (whatever that means), racial barriers were torn asunder, and we saw enough money spent on advertising to run a small nation for a long time!
And then just like that - it was over. The candidates commercials stopped, the signs disappeared from the yards, the "news" went back to talking about Madonna or some other non news-news. It is all over for another election cycle. No more will we hear Kay Hagan say "I will let you know". There is no more talk of expensive wardrobes or haircuts, no more late night comedy gigs using the word "also" way to much!
I find myself channeling surfing more than usual. I am struggling to make conversation about... well anything. Everyone I voted for lost and I am sad for them. I am sad for me. I have been alive through several presidencies; Truman- I was a baby and he had already dropped the bomb on Japan. Eisenhower - former famous General, wife Mamie. Kennedy- a terrible tragedy, November 22, 1963- I was in the 8th grade. LBJ- never a favorite, but one of his daughters got married at the White House and so it all evened out. Nixon- oh the shame still burns on my face when I think about it. Gerald Ford- golfer, bad golfer. Carter- gas lines, a crazy brother who urinated in public. Reagan- now there was a president! George H W Bush- 1st desert storm one term wonder. Clinton- "He did NOT have ... "well you know the rest.
George Bush the current president- 9/11, Afganistan, Iraq,the Tsunami, Katrina, economic crisis, brought honor and integrity to the office, many would argue. So I have seen good, bad and horrible presidencies, 11 in all. But part of what makes this a great nation is that we still have a great nation oft times in spite of our ourselves. So we give each new guy a chance. We pray for him and wish him well and then we wait and see. .... In the mean time you will find me emerging from my post election stupor, battle weary, but still proud to be an American!

You have got to be kidding right? In defense of books!

2008-11-01T21:02:00.004-04:00

So recently I have been following the newest gizmo being offered for sale on Amazon.com . Now I am all for gizmos and gadgets. I mean I have an ipod,a laptop and a desktop computer,a cell phone, and a digital camera. But the lastest gizmo I think just might be the biggest bamboozal ever sold to a gullible people!( All political races aside) The gadget of which I speak is the "Kindle" offered by Amazon for the price of $359.00. The makers tout the product as;

Kindle: Amazon's Wireless Reading Device

"This is the future of book reading. It will be everywhere." Michael Lewis, author of Moneyball and Liar's Poker.

A wireless reading device... hmmm ... I might be going out on a limb here but is not a book a wireless reading device? All of my books are wireless! In fact that is one thing I love about them. I know, I know, the product is capable of downloading multiple books into the the little device, but it further promotes itself in this manner...

• Revolutionary electronic-paper display provides a sharp, high-resolution screen that looks and reads like real paper.
• Simple to use: no computer, no cables, no syncing.

Am I crazy or is a book not the same thing? Looks and feels like and IS real paper!
A book is simple to use and has no cables or wires either!
A book does not cost $359.00 dollars before the cost of downloads! Ahhhhhhhhhh

I was recently blessed with the most amazing set of hand crafted bookcases, lovingly built by my dear husband. Bookcases for BOOKS! Lots and lots of books! Now if he knew that a little device like the Kindle could replace the need for the bookcases he could have saved a good deal of money and a great deal of space... he just might have bought me the Kindle! But then where would I have put my dear books?

Now one day I might be forced into buying a Kindle in order to get a book and then perhaps the feel of paper will be a thing of the past! But until then I will visit the Library, go to the book stores, and lovingly take books from my new bookshelves and read their sweet pages. All without wires! I have the original Kindle... wireless reading device...it is called a BOOK!

The Ocean Always Brings Me Peace!

2008-10-26T22:02:00.003-04:00

You Might be a Teacher if...

2008-10-06T20:48:00.003-04:00

...you love going to teacher convention.

On Wednesday of this week, all of the faculty will get on the bus; yes, the school bus, and will head off to the annual teacher's convention. Once there we will check into our little rooms with our designated roomies and then the big night out!
Yes, the faculty of the school where I currently teach will be more excited than you can possibly imagine about a trip to Cracker Barrel. Partly we are excited because someone else is picking up the check, but most of my colleagues are excited because it is Cracker Barrel. Now this would not be particularly funny, except for the fact that the previous two high schools where I taught while living in New Jersey did the exact same thing on the first night of teacher convention! It must be a teacher thing??? And just as a side note... I have yet to see any crackers in any barrels there.
On Thursday morning we will get up VERY early and jockey for position for the key note address. This jockeying comes in several varieties. There is the: send one person and about 50 programs or notebooks and save as many seats as possible as close to the front as possible variation. Then there is the send the seat saver variation. "Little sister seat saver" will take you out if you even think of sitting in her rows of "saved" seats. There is the LARGE mean looking male school administrator whose look will just make you turn around and go to the back of the LARGE convention hall variation.
Once seated we will enjoy singing a few choruses where everyone will sing at the top of their lungs and in as many parts as we can muster. I personally like this part. Once our key note session is over it is always fun to watch several thousand, mostly women, charge out the convention hall and scatter like lemmings looks for cliffs.
I should make mention here about teacher wear. It is at teacher convention that all of the teacher clothes come out of the closet! The cute jumpers and vests with pumpkins and leaves,the ABC's and the pencils and apples will also be in large numbers. There will be schools sporting their school shirts something closely akin to a corporate logo. No where else in the world will you see these fashions and you will never find out where to purchase these clothes. Actually I think that there is a great swap shop, where teacher clothes just keep being handed down from one generation to the next!
Right after the scattering we will find our way to the "sessions" or workshops where we will be schooled on a number of topics ranging from "Glue and Paste 101" to " What do you mean I can't have a grade book anymore and have to learn to do this on the computer?"
But the creme De la creme of teacher convention is visiting the vendors!!!!!! Here we find row upon row of an amazing assortment of vendors selling, giving or promoting just about anything you can imagine. There mixed with the textbooks publishers,are fundraiser pizza and cookie vendors. There will be colleges represented where you might NEVER send any of your children, and maybe a few where you might. There are always a number of camps represented who do outdoor education camps. And lest I forget to tell you.. it is here in vendor land that we get freebies! You might get free pens, and toys and books and t-shirts, food and tote bags in which to carry it all! At the end of the first day most of the free stuff is gone, but tomorrow there will be the endless drawings for the endless little pieces of paper you filled out hoping to win something REALLY big like a giant ruler or a bigger tote bag. This year I am hoping for the gas card give away! I must be a teacher... cause I just love teacher convention!

I am telling you... I could NOT make this up! Stand by for BREAKING NEWS!

2008-09-25T20:24:00.003-04:00

Breaking News:

Fair not opening

Officials at the Wayne Regional Agricultural Fair have decided to not open the gates today, closing the midway and the exhibits because of the inclement weather.

However, the Open Junior Meat Goat Show will go on as scheduled at 6 p.m., but has been moved indoors.

Today was supposed to be...

Full story

Oh Thelma would LOVE this News Flash! Exactly what is an Open Junior Meat Goat Show?

Falling.....

2008-09-21T18:31:00.004-04:00

Falling is the what one does as fall begins. We are falling when we watch the leaves begin to descend from the tall trees. We are falling when we dig out the sweaters. We are falling when we long for fires in the fireplace. We are falling when we can breathe in the smell of burning leaves in someones yard. We are falling when we go for long walks down leafy paths. As today is the first day of Autumn I encourage you to do some falling. Maybe fall in love again with the season that brings out the best in many of us. For here in the south we must wait awhile longer for the leaves to fall and for the temperatures to drop. But for today I have lighted a fire in the fireplace anyway... even if the air conditioner is on! :)

Saturday Mornings... and Haute Cuisine Southern Style...

2008-09-13T18:19:00.006-04:00

Saturday mornings have become for my husband and I, a special part of our week. We love spending time together and we love to go to the gym together... only not exactly together. We pack our little gym bags together, and we get into our car and drive together.. and then as we get 'to town'... I drop him off at the YMCA and I drive about 2 blocks further and go to Curves. So we do go to separate gyms together, simultaneously and at the same time, while maintaining a slight distance, based solely on my desire to not workout in front of some very scary patrons.

This routine has taken on a life of its own. My workout does not involve a hot tub,pool or a weight room and scary shower room, and so it does not last as long as my husband's routine. My routine is about 30 to 45 minutes long and so after sweating to the oldies it has become my treat to myself to go to Starbucks and to indulge in an Iced Skinny Green Tea Latte Grande! Yum... I had been enjoying the Iced Skinny Vanilla Latte Grande... but decided that the Green Tea Latte seemed somehow more healthy! What do you think? Anyway I digress... I then have about an hour and a half until my dear husband finishes his routine. This is when the morning gets really interesting!

I usually run a few quick errands and then I make a trip to Sam's Club. For those who may not be familiar with Sam's it is a warehouse club owned by the Walton family of Wal-Mart fame. Now the trip to Sam's for whatever it is I may need is NOT the highlight of my trip. The highlight is once I check out... after checking out with my purchases in tow I roll my cart past the "Sam's Restaurant". There right in front of the check out lanes is an array of metal and plastic picnic tables and VERY large trash cans. There is an ordering window where people order pizza and hot dogs and all manner of interesting cuisine. Now most every Sam's that I have ever been in has one of these food courts... without the rest of the court, but what sets this one apart from all of the others is that it is ALWAYS packed! I mean there are usually almost NO seats available! There are usually people lined up at the order window and most of the tables are full!

Now I have always been told that if you want to find the good restaurants in a town just look for the places that are always packed! Hmmmmm so I guess what I am trying to say is that if you come to see me here in the south... we just may have to go for a meal at Sam's Club. Don't worry I can get you in... I have a membership! :)

Mothers of Five Unite!

2008-09-06T19:28:00.004-04:00

Now that my five children are all grown, it is obviously easier to see things clearly in hind sight. But as questions of Sarah Palin's ability to be wife, mom, governor, VP candidate, etc seem to be swirling in the media... I feel compelled to answer! The answer is YES -- SHE CAN! Mothers of five are, if I may say so humbly, remarkable!
My own five children were born in 74,76,81, and twins - twenty-two months later in 83! By 1986 I was a single mother raising these 5 children on my own. I worked two jobs.. teaching in a small Christian school by day and cleaning factories,empty apartment complexes and office buildings by night.
We were generally in church on Sunday mornings, Sunday evenings, Wednesday nights and any other time the doors were open. We rationed food. We sometimes struggled to pay the bills. We had issues with teens. But never did it occur to me or to my children that this was something in which we could not succeed. The older children helped with the younger children, several family friends were there to help us when things needed repair or to lend moral support. But we did it! The five children put themselves through Christian college. Today four of them are married, one daughter has blessed us with three granddaughters, another daughter is expecting in February. My children all work, all have Bachelors degrees, two have Masters degrees and a third daughter is currently in grad school, one is a successful film editor, two teach at the college level, one works for a nationally known non profit, and one is an HR specialist. After they were grown I went back to college and now have my Masters degree.
I believe that Sarah Palin is MORE than capable of being a successful mom, wife , governor and Vice President of the United States. I think that the leading she has done with her five, gives her the ability to lead the world! She has the experience of being an expert in foreign policy while negotiating peace treaties between fighting children. She has been an expert on the economy while trying to figure how to feed five kids and a husband on a tight budget. She understands the energy needs of the world because of driving kids back and forth to more activities than you can shake a stick at. She understands the need for affordable health care, while trying to figure out how to get all those kids vaccinated. Hockey Mom ? Indeed... PTA Mom?... Indeed.... Leader of the Free World? ABSOLUTELY!

The Truth Is.......

2008-09-01T16:57:00.002-04:00

With the disclosure today of the pregnancy of Sarah Palin's daughter, the blog world and all networks are a buzz with the news. The truth is that if this child had opted for an abortion, NO ONE would have known. But the decision of this young woman to carry and keep her child becomes a national news story. And why? Because her mother has been named Sen. McCain's running mate for VP. I applaud Bristol's parent's decision to publicly acknowledge the pregnancy and to support their daughter. This could become a battle cry by pro-lifers, to bring the plight of the unborn to the front! In another scenario this teenager might have had her pregnancy terminated without even her parent's knowledge. The murder would have gone unnoticed by media outlets and things would have continued without a blip. But with God there are NO accidents. Perhaps, just perhaps, this announcement might open the doors for open and honest discussion about teenage pregnancy and the rights of the unborn!

VP Pick Candidate Sarah Palin... I love it!

2008-08-30T08:31:00.004-04:00

Yesterday, Sen. John McCain picked long shot Gov. Sarah Palin as his VP choice. I know the experience issue has come up very quickly. But since Sarah Palin is a mother of five... I personally think she already has more experience than most people on the planet. She is no doubt a top negotiator, truce maker, economic strategist, home security expert,and the list just goes on. She is an evangelical Christian with a strong pro-life stand. She has tackled government corruption and she lives in the wildest state in the union! I am REALLY and FINALLY excited about the upcoming race! Go Sarah!

In the Spirit of Campaign Slogans...

2008-08-26T22:58:00.003-04:00

MISS SPELLERS OF THE WORLD ....UNTIE!!!

I mean I'm just saying...

2008-08-24T16:10:00.007-04:00

When I am gone.. if you could please not double bungee cord the faded fake flowers to the top of head stone I would be most grateful! This just might come under the heading of ... "You know you might be in the South if...".

When Time and Love are all that are needed to make a difference...

2008-08-23T19:38:00.004-04:00

The face of an angel.... This is Jo Daughtery. Today Jo is 77 years young and still living exactly where I last saw her over 40 years ago.
The weekend I traveled back to Fallbrook for my reunion, I took a chance and went by the church that had given me sanctuary of a sort... and then just for grins I drove to the home of my former youth leaders. Ted and Jo had three girls of their own, yet always had room for twenty or thirty teenagers. Ted was a military enlisted man and he and Jo had dedicated themselves to be the VOLUNTEER youth leaders at the little Baptist church I attended. I knew that Ted had passed away many years ago, but I wondered.
I wondered if Jo might still be there, would the house be there? I found the house and parked and as I was getting ready to walk up to the door, a small women came out and asked if she could help me. I told her that she had already helped me and told her my maiden name! Jo was soooooo happy to see me and I was of course thrilled to see her. I just wanted her to know she had made a difference in my life.
She and Ted were just there for us. Their house was always open to us. It was a simple home and yet always and still spotless and yet comfortable. These amazing selfless servants fed us, fussed at us, drove us, let us play Twister in their living room, they prayed for us, protected us, stood up for us, and just loved us. Loved us when we were not so lovable. They gave so much and I just wanted her to know! Thank you Jo... much of who I am today I owe to you and Ted and a church willing to love a little girl from a less than stable background. Willing to give me rides, since I often came to church alone, willing to make sure I had something to add to potluck dinners so I wouldn't feel "weird", willing to listen, willing to pay my way to Christian camp in Glorietta, New Mexico where I became a Christian. Willing, available, and loving. Thank You Jo!

Obama selects running mate...hmmmm

2008-08-23T17:13:00.005-04:00

For once there is no need for commentary!

Reunion Remembered...

2008-08-20T22:36:00.002-04:00

Behind these same doors... were teachers who made a difference in my life!
Hey why did they pave the grass between the buildings?
The Duke's son Kevin went to school with us... when we were kids even the bowling alley was named after Duke Snider. The ball field seems like a better fit!
The football field looked GREAT...
And there on the water tower the year is still proudly displayed. We used to sneak up there and paint it when we were young... now the town does it for the kids to keep them from getting hurt!

Singing the school anthem! Priceless...

2008-08-16T20:50:00.004-04:00

Remembering all the words... Miraculous!
"On a group of rolling foothills ... Stands a building we adore.
It's the Fallbrook Union High School ... One we'll love forevermore.
When we leave this school for greater and hail it's colors bright,
We'll not forget old Fallbrook and the dear old red and white!"

FUHS Reunion Class of 1968 Baby!!! Day 1

2008-08-16T17:41:00.013-04:00

Could it really be that a week ago today I was in sunny southern California? I was whisked back in time to an era that was perhaps the happiest of my somewhat unique upbringing.

On Friday last I climbed aboard a Southwest flight from Raleigh and flew to San Diego via lay over in Denver. I arrived in beautiful San Diego at 4:30 in the afternoon, went to the car rental people and picked up my sporty, if not zippy, Ford focus. In minutes I was flying up the "5" towards Oceanside... okay, I was driving in 12 lanes of traffic ,which normally would terrify me, but it was rush hour and so people were going 35 miles an hour most of the way. This makes the whole term "rush hour" somewhat oxymoronic. Before leaving the sweet little rental car agent, I asked dumbly, "How do I get on Rt. 101 to Oceanside?" He then asked how long it had been since I had been in Southern California.... "well other than a quick weekend to Costa Mesa in 2005 ... ah... about 40 years I guess... what do you mean there are other ways to go north other than Rt. 101 or 395 ???" Silly me... but I digress. I arrived in Oceanside around 6 pm and drove straight to the apt. of a high school friend, whom I had not seen since graduation!
Robin had told me I could crash at her house for the weekend and so I was thrilled to have a safe place to stay and a friend with who I could talk about our high school years.

She was not planning to go to the Friday night event but I talked her into going. We followed our map and entered the secret code and found our way to the home of another classmate. When we drove up, we knew we would be late and were not certain where the house was exactly, but as we got closer we encountered Allen DeLong's classic 1956 Chevy and we knew we were in the right place.

We arrived about a half hour late.... but found our name tags.. (Thank goodness for whomever thought of putting our senior pictures on the name tags) and went out to the back yard. And there before me were about 75 former classmates and spouses... How had all these other people gotten so old.??... surely I will not recognize any of them .. but they will no doubt have NO problems recognizing me!!!HA! I mean how much might I have changed in 40 years?? Hmmm, well I have gained about 30 lbs, I have highlighted hair now, hiding the white and gray, glasses (darn... should have worn the contacts), and oh yes, a chest
(regardless of where it might actually reside now.. should have worn the wonder bra.. drat!)... which I certainly did not have in 1968!

Some people remembered me...but most of my group of girlfriends were NOT there! A few of the guys on whom I had huge crushes in high school were there, not that they ever knew that of course. And well to see them now... I am just as glad maybe nothing ever came of my day dreams. I guess it brought home to me that in fact I was not very "popular" in high school. I was not athletic, I was not in the band, I was not a cheerleader type, I was not academic. I was in choir ... I did like school... I was just not very good at it. Early on I had been labeled as "not college material" and so I seemed determined to live up to some guidance counselor's expectations of me!

But now it is forty years later and I found myself doing much the same thing as I did then... I would have loved to have been in the thick of things, but found myself sitting on the outskirts and observing. Don't think that I was not having a great time.. I really was. I was wonderful to see the amazing way in which the organizers had put the whole thing together. Our host's home was absolutely beautiful, both inside and out. And I did enjoy talking with people... after a few hours I could not figure out why I was sooooo tired and I looked at my watch and it was still on
Eastern Standard Time and it was 2:15 AM. even though the night was still young on the other coast! Stay tuned for my Saturday and of course the BIG EVENT!

to be continued...

Hysterical Markers!!!

2008-08-02T23:05:00.003-04:00

There is just something about historical markers that bring out the kid in me! It does not matter where or when I see one, I shriek and holler and beg for whomever to pull to the side of the road so I can at least read the piece of history that has been summarized into a few words. There in molded metal along the highways and back country roads of our nation are pieces and snatches of our past. Here along Route 301 on the property of Fort AP Hill is a marker of infamy.

Local History... Who knew

2008-08-02T16:37:00.004-04:00

Part of the assimilation process of living in a new area is getting to know the local color and history of an area. In recent days we have made several great discoveries. The stumbled across the Whitehall Battle site in Seven Springs and yesterday we visited the Charles Brantley Aycock birthplace in Pikeville, NC. Aycock was an early governor of North Carolina and is considered by many to be the "Education governor".

Sprinkles

2008-08-02T16:26:00.004-04:00

Nothing says summer like a trip to Sprinkles! Sprinkles is an old fashioned ice cream shop. Every now and then G-pa treats and we all get ice cream! My personal favorite is White House Cherry... and sometimes Denali Moose Tracks! But watching little ones enjoy ice cream is a joy in and of itself!!

The Joy of Nananess...

2008-08-02T16:18:00.003-04:00

Every now and then grand-mother-hood brings moments of sheer JOY! Yesterday was one of those days! Now it has been many years since I tried to wrangle three 'six and unders' but for a bit yesterday I was transported back to another place and time.

Happy Anniversary to Us!

2008-08-01T14:04:00.003-04:00

One year ago we signed on the dotted line and became first time home owners! It has been an incredible year of joy and blessings. We love our home,our jobs,being near part of the fam and yes, even many of the "Southern" ways.

A Look at Miss Potter

2008-06-20T09:08:00.015-04:00

Rarely one to tout the virtues of any film, I thought I would take this opportunity to rave about a movie already available on DVD. Miss Potter is a film starring Renee Zellweger, and Ewan McGregor. While it did not do particularly well in the theater, this is where I saw this film treasure.
If you have children or have ever been a child, then you have no doubt been exposed to Beatrix Potter, the beloved children's author and illustrator. The film is a unique look at the life of this amazing woman. The directors have carefully woven film and animation together ever so gently that you are almost not even aware that it is happening. The movie also gives you a glimpse at the beautiful Lakes region of the UK.

This film is one to own and one to watch again and again. I have linked to the movie trailer which should whet your appetite to see this movie!
And for those who are not film fans, there is also Miss Potter, The Novel by Richard Maltby Jr.,which is published by F.Warne and Co.. This is the same publishing house which published all of Beatrix's books! (A touch of irony there I believe)

Time Out...

2008-06-09T08:38:00.003-04:00

Since last Wednesday it feels as though I have been sent to "time out". A recent injury has left me spending way more time sitting than I am used to. But time out can be a good thing. Forced limited mobility makes us refocus on what is important. And as it turns out, there seems to be few outward things in my life that are really all THAT important.

The things we often spend our time running around like crazy to accomplish are usually not critical to life and sanity. There are so many things going on in the world right now that are important, there are things that do matter for eternity. But my momentary "time out" has given me time to think about what is important. What is important is our relationship with God,and our relationship with our family and friends.

Right now there are families facing grief, pain and seemingly insurmountable obstacles. The world is facing heart wrenching disaster and I am spending a few days in "time out" to reflect and to count my blessings!

And what I still need to do will no doubt be waiting for me when I get back :)

A Perfect Day...

2008-05-26T20:33:00.003-04:00

Today was a perfect day! The weather was absolutely beautiful, a cool breeze blew most of the day and even though the temperature reached the low 80's at some point, it was never hot or humid. We accomplished all that we set out to do and the day ended with a freshly grilled hamburger, and a time rocking on the front porch! Can life get any better than this? ahhhh summer!

The three day weekend!

2008-05-26T13:42:00.003-04:00

There was a time in our nation when even one day off was considered a luxury. Men and women and sometimes even children worked 16 and 18 hour days, six or seven days a week.

Somewhere along the way we were given the 8 hour work day and a 5 day day workweek. Every weekend we have two days in which to rest,relax, worship and do all of the other projects that need to be done. So then why is it that when we are given a 3 day weekend we seem to get so many more things finished? Yes, one additional day is great, but what we seem capable of accomplishing is exponentially greater than the one day really gives us!! It is a synergistic mystery! The sum is greater than the parts of the whole! I am not sure that the same principle would be the case if we had a three day weekend every week.

As for me, I am thankful for the weekend, thankful especially for the chance to remember the men and women who have sacrificed for me.

I do miss the Memorial Day parade that used to come down Cooper Street each year right in front of our house. I miss the bag pipers playing and the marching bands. But I will take the tranquility of our southern neighborhood any day! I am going to go hurry and enjoy every last minute of my long weekend!

In Memory of...

2008-05-26T00:38:00.003-04:00

Memorial Day always evokes images of flag draped caskets and bugle players for those who have given the ultimate sacrifice. It is not often I speak of my step father with respect or honor, but on Memorial Day it is only fitting that I should remember that Donald Edward Krueger was on active duty in the United States Navy when he died. While his death was not considered war related, he did die while serving his country. He had just returned from a year of duty in Okinawa and was on the verge of being promoted to Chief Petty officer. Donald Krueger was a corpsman who had made a career of Navy life. Those who worked with him called him pappy. Somewhere I have the medals he received in combat. When Donald Krueger died there was a simple military funeral at a graveyard in Wisconsin. A life lived and died in service to our nation. I remember...

A New Season

2008-05-16T20:13:00.002-04:00

In the scheme of things seasons come and seasons go. Spring is about to give way to summer and with it our fourth daughter will marry. Weddings are always interesting times in families. It will either bring out the best in people or bring out the worst or maybe somewhere in between. So far we have been so blessed with the men our girls have married and we are sure it will be the same with the one to join the club this summer.

Somewhere I have at least one brother...

2008-05-12T21:50:00.004-04:00

...and today is his birthday! This brother would be two years older than me, so that would make him 60 I think! I have not laid eyes on John Edward Krueger since I was in the 8th grade. That is about 45 years give or take one. John was my step-brother for about three years while his father and my mother were married.(Long depressing story). When his dad died he moved back to Wisconsin with his mom and four other siblings and I never saw him again. I did talk to John on the phone about 14 years ago. He was still living in Wisconsin, had never married, and was going back to school. He had overcome obstacles in his life and was on the road to recovery. We each had memories which were less than fond of our step-parents, but at least for awhile he was my brother and so...

John, I wish you a happy birthday and a wonderful rest of your life. I pray that God grants you the peace you seek and gives you the desires of your heart.

Your pesky little sister,

Suzi

Who knew?

2008-05-07T19:33:00.003-04:00

So today I learned that a word I have used my entire life is in fact NOT a word at all! Who knew? Today while typing the "word" pronunciate, we kept getting the dreaded red underline. Thinking perhaps that I had used the word incorrectly I checked and re-checked only to learn sadly that pronunciate is in fact not a word. You can pronounce, you can ask for a pronunciation, but alas pronunciate is not a word. Now enunciate is a word and perhaps somewhere along the way some teacher of mine merged the two and 'coined' pronunciate. So now I find myself feeling very guilty for leading so many students astray. However, will I begin new vocabulary lessons from now on? Okay, students turn in your vocabulary books and pronounce the following words correctly being careful to enunciate each word carefully.

Side note: Even now the non-word is red-lined before my eyes four times! AHHHHH!

A Poverty Czar??!!!???

2008-05-06T22:10:00.002-04:00

Are you kidding me? While most of the time I stay away from discussing politics in a public forum, today I feel I must make at least a comment about something Hillary Clinton said today. While watching an interview conducted by a reporter from a Raleigh station, Mrs. Clinton said that the way she would combat poverty in the US would be to immediately appoint a POVERTY CZAR... can someone say OXIMORON? Wasn't the Russian Czar deposed by poor people precisely for being the CZAR? Is not the very connotation of the word Czar, the words, MONEY, RICHES, etc?
And just who would Hilary appoint to the lofty postion??? Donald Trump, Warren Buffett? Bill Gates? Would the CZAR have a CZARISTA? What would the first act of the POVERTY CZAR be? A proclamation banning poor people? An opening of the national treasury giving all of the poor gasoline for a year?
PLEASSSSE Mrs. Clinton give us a break!

It's like riding a bike... it all comes back to you!

2008-05-05T19:53:00.003-04:00

Riding a bike is the thing we never forget how to do. And so once again we have brought out the bikes and went for our first evening ride. Racing through the neighborhood tonight I was reminded of long ago learning to ride my bike circa 1955. I remember my aunt and uncle buying me a three speed which was too big for me and we tried and tried to get me going. After several rounds of skinned knees and wounded pride they finally bought me a used no-speed bike with a much smaller frame. Once they got me over the fact that the "new"/"old" bike would just be a training bike, I overcame my fear and started to ride. Once they were sure I was doing well on the used bike, the original gift reappeared and I was off and riding. Little did I know that 52 years later this would be a skill I would still possess and actually use!
This strikes me as a great life lesson. How often do we learn a skill and regard it as unimportant, only to later realize that it is something we find needful,useful or at the very least, enjoyable. So what skills have you long ago abandoned? One I intend to resurrect is surfing. Now it has been well over 30 years since I tried to get up on a board, but I know I still have it in me! I wonder if there is a Granny Surf Camp for which I can sign up? Another acquired skill was that of the monkey bars... now this skill, unlike bike riding, I do not see in my future!

Roller Rue, Anna and Emma Grace too...

2008-04-20T22:07:00.004-04:00

Years ago when our own children were young, my husband took great joy in taking them roller skating. Amanda,Jaime and Dan would chase him around the roller rink and they became good little skaters. So recently Garey suggested that he might take our two oldest grand-daughters roller skating. Yesterday was the big day... we went to the rink and I was able to watch as the girls started the process of learning to skate. Emma Grace is 4 and Anna is 6. They each brought skates of their own. Emma realized very quickly that if she was going to learn to skate she needed the skates like the other kids were wearing. Anna was content to wear her own shoe skates.
The part that made me laugh was watching the girls hang on to Garey for dear life! After 15 minutes Gar was sweating like he had been working out for an hour. When the large stuffed Kangaroo called Roller Rue skated out, Emma Grace said she did not want to skate with him. She watched carefully until Roller Rue skated back into his closet! Anna observed that the boy behind the skate counter, went into the closet before Roller Rue came out and the boy came out of the closet only when Roller Rue went back into the closet. So she cleverly deduced that indeed the boy from behind the counter and Roller Rue were one in the same!
In less than an hour the girls were ready for a snack and they were very tired. We think their arms were probably more worn out than their feet.
We are will no doubt go back to the rink when G-pa recovers! :)

New Opportunity to Pray

2008-04-19T21:22:00.003-04:00

There is a baby now in Boston who has had open heart surgery and who is now on a heart and lung machine and is in need of a heart transplant. The young mom is a close friend of my daughter Jennifer. Her grandfather is the director of America's Keswick in New Jersey. Please join with the thousand who are praying for Lindsay! http://www.lindsaykeswick.blogspot.com/

Thelma's Birthday...

2008-04-15T21:14:00.002-04:00

April 16th, 1928 a baby was born to an Irish maid named Annie Johnson. She worked, we believe, for a wealthy Mass. businessman and his family. How Annie found herself in the "family way", we are not sure, but she took her new baby daughter to a foundling home. When the baby was just a few weeks old she was given to her adoptive parents, Harry and Lottie Kay. They had longed for a child of their own and had lost several children to miscarriage and still-birth. Here at last they had their baby girl. Why they named her Thelma, I will never know, but they did and little Thelma Marion Kay took her place in the world. Although not wealthy people, the Kays showered Thelma with everything they could possible give her. She had dance lessons and piano lessons. Lottie was an amazing seamstress and so Thelma always had beautiful dresses. The little girl loved her parents, but was daddy's girl. She excelled in school earning A's. In high school Thelma took four years of French and four years of Latin. She excelled in the maths and sciences. She was involved in drama and oratory clubs and was a voracious reader. Thelma never missed a chance to dance and did whenever she had a chance. By the time high school graduation came around she had earned a full scholarship to Brown University.

But as she prepared to go to college her beloved father suffered a severe stroke and was sent home to die. Thelma stayed home part of that year to care for her dad and entered nursing school shortly after his death.

Thelma spent almost 50 years as an RN and she was an amazing nurse! She worked in every imaginable area of nursing. In the later years of her life's journey she worked for the Indian Health Service in Barrow, Alaska. She loved the Inuit people and the wild world of the land of the midnight sun. In her early 60's she kayaked alone down an Alaska river from one town to another. She tracked moose for 10 days walking into the mountains with just a pack horse and a gun.

I was Thelma's only child, but she had a host of friends whom she loved and who loved her in return. She had five grand-children who have become amazing adults. She would have loved watching each of them graduate from college. She would have loved going to their weddings. One time a reporter in Cripple Creek, Colorado when writing about the old hospital there, wrote of my mother... "She could light up the darkest corner of the old building." And so she did! Even in her final days she brought laughter to those who were with her. If you ever complained to Thelma about some pain or illness she would use her best New England/faux Irish accent and say "Well, now I'll tell you one thing for sure... It's a long way from your heart!"

It has been over ten years since Thelma left the planet. I miss her so much. There are great-grand children she never got to fuss over, there are new in-laws she would have adored,and there have been so many life events that she would have just been crazy about.

So tomorrow is your birthday mom... you would have been 80 going on 40! :) I love you and miss you!

Suzi

PS I will tell more of your story in a future post! Yes, I will try to get it right, and no I won't tell everything, I promise!

Blog dependent...

2008-04-06T21:32:00.002-04:00

Just like a patient can become ventilator dependent or ICU dependent I think I have become somewhat blog dependent. These last weeks and months I have become blog dependent while following the story of the Lawrenson's. Just like the serial movies of long ago.. I check the computer many many times a day waiting praying and watching for an update on Tricia's condition or that of the baby, the next installment if you will. And so as Tricia becomes less and less dependent on the ventilator and as the baby becomes bigger and stronger and less dependent on feeding tubes it is only fitting that all of those of us who have been part of their journey should also start to be weened. The day is coming SOON when the family will be going home and start living a "normal" life. We will continue to pray but we will never forget the faith and courage we have seen in the lives of this young family.

Until then I am going through withdrawal when Nate takes a blogging break! AH!

Story of Starvel...

2008-04-06T18:39:00.002-04:00

I recently heard from an "old" college roommate who remembered my 'friend' Starvel. Starvel was a stuffed dog that was given to me during my childhood. I hauled that poor dog around for so many years! I named him "Starvel" because even when he was new he looked like someone had starved him. I loved that dog. He was the one constant in a childhood that offered few constants of any kind.

Today I am blessed to have a life of so many constants. The constant love of my savior, the constant and undying love of my husband Garey, the constant love of my five grown children, and of course the love of my grandbabies!

So whatever happened to Starvel? Sadly someone who will forever not be named, made me part with my faithful friend long ago. But that is okay, God certainly is more than enough!

Reason to Rejoice!

2008-04-04T19:38:00.003-04:00

We continue to rejoice with Nate, now that his wife Tricia has received her glorious gift of new lungs. The days and weeks to come will still need much prayer. Continue to intercede for this family.

I remember years ago when I was in ICU for many months that some people prayed just for our finances to be taken care of. Even when there was much doubt as to if I would live or not, there were many who just kept praying that God would cover all of the bills!

This has been my prayer of late for Nate, Tricia and the baby. The last thing these sweet young people need is horrific debt. So we pray that God would supernaturally take care of EVERY medical bill for both the baby and Tricia! I believe that they have insurance, but as with all insurance policies, there are always things that are not covered and so we ask the Lord to do what only He can.

Nate has so much on his plate right now, but keeps standing watch for his girls. Visit www.cfhusband.blogspot.com for the most recent updates!

Pray for Tricia tonight!!

2008-04-02T21:29:00.002-04:00

The transplant surgery has started for Tricia. Now Nate must wait for the next 7-9 hours as the team operates. Please keep Tricia, Nate, baby, and their families in prayer tonight! Pray also for the donor family!

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Painful contrast...

2008-03-24T08:52:00.002-04:00

Today we passed a painful mark in the war on terror. Over 4,000 of our nation's finest young men and women have now been killed while serving in Irag and in Afghanistan.

I remember hanging a list in my classroom as the first 19 and then the first 150 were killed. I remember telling those students that the day would come when the list would be too long to hang and when the names would start to blur and just like during the Vietnam war we would find ourselves becoming somewhat numbed to the daily reports.

I believe in the war we are fighting, I personally know one young Marine who is now a quadriplegic because of his valor, but I cannot help but wonder if any of those students from 2003 remember my words? And does that really matter?

By way of contrast I remember during high school as more and more young men from our town went to Vietnam and how sad we were when word reached us that friends were being drafted and sadder still when some did not come home. And then the day came when my boyfriend was drafted. That notice altered the forever in our after.

I suppose what matters most is that there are still young people in our country who are willing to sacrifice for our nation! We pray for those young people and their families. We pray for those families who have lost a loved one!

May God bless America!

Book Review... Is a review really a review if you have only read half of the book?

2008-03-15T20:29:00.007-04:00

Hmmmm Anyway today I am reading Embrace Me by Lisa Samson. Any of you who know me well know that she is perhaps my favorite contempory author. Her new book will make you think about forgiveness in new ways. The story is told from two voices and from two time periods. One character a run-away preacher searching for himself and God. The other voice is that of Valentine... Val and her best pal Lella are side show artists. Val is the Lizard woman and Lella is a woman born without arms or legs. How the stories are woven together is perfectly classic Samson! Believe me you will not want to put this book down! Visit Lisa's website: www.authorintrusion.com

Story of Me ... Part IV... Early memories

2008-03-15T14:58:00.004-04:00

One of my earliest memories was that of visiting my great-grandmother! For the life of me I do not even know for sure if this was my grandmother's mother or my grandfather's mother.. but I tend to think she was my grandmother's mother. She was confined to a wheelchair by the time I was born. I remember a day playing on the floor near the large wooden- high-backed wheel chair with grandmother sitting there looking stern with a white gown or day dress on. She had gray hair that was pulled up into a bun and I remember her reaching down and giving me red plastic coasters to play with. I do not know much about her except that I am pretty sure her name was Elizabeth Browning without the Barrett. I must have only been two or so when this took place but I can still see and feel the moment. We still lived in Rhode Island and there are several snatches of memory that go with this time period.

Another memory is of going to Little Compton in the summer to the ocean. I remember the little cottage we would rent and I remember the pattern of the linoleum floors that my mother would sweep each day to remove a layer of sand. I remember going to an eatery that was sort of outdoors. It served fish and chips and lobster and there were no tables, just counters the went all around the outside with stools that turned back and forth. We would make these treks to the beach with my "Aunt" Dot and my "cousin" Ricky. Dot was my mom's best friend and Ricky was Dot's son. I do not know why we called non-relatives by relative names back then but it seemed the thing to do. In the coming years there would be many more non-relatives I would call by relative names!

Wally Swett....

2008-03-15T14:31:00.003-04:00

Today I have been reading a new book and it has reminded me of an amazing young man I met in college. Wally Swett was the yearbook editor at CBC one year. I considered Wally a friend. The first thing you noticed about Wally Swett was how comfortable he was in his own skin, the second thing was that he did not have complete arms. Wally never considered this to be a disability! He never complained about what he couldn't do, because for the most part there was almost nothing that he couldn't do! (double negative there somewhere).

I hope he is well. He taught me valuable lessons about life and living! He taught me look past the seeming disability and see the ability! Thanks Wally..

7 Things...

2008-03-15T14:04:00.004-04:00

7 Things You Probably Don't Know About Me! Idea borrowed unashamedly and with permission from Nate's blog! www.cfhusband.blogspot.com

1. I LOVE to learn new things... not formal things like math or data, but I am huge on just knowing interesting stuff about a myriad of topics. This makes me a fierce living room Jeopardy player! When taking a Strengths test recently- Input - was perhaps my greatest strength.

2. Surfing was one of my passions in high school. I lived in Southern California and although I was never a great surfer- I loved it! I think I could still get up on a board although for this grandmother this would be an amazing feat for the feet and for the rest of the body!

3. Riding was perhaps my other passion in high school. We owned horses and I taught riding for several summers at Rawhide Ranch in Bonsall, CA.

4. Studying the lives of unique missionaries has become almost an obsession, although a closet one. I have managed to purchase almost all the antique books available about and by Amy Carmichael and Lilias Trotter. I am currently searching for a book about JW Tucker missionary to the Congo.

5. Another secret hobby is reading about and studying the great revivals in America and elsewhere.

6. If you meet me at school or church or see me at an event where I might be speaking or singing, I am really very shy. I know the talking and laughing and seeming boldness is at odds with that statement, but I am really very very shy. When they do that 'everyone turn and shake someone's hand thing' at church I almost always sit down and want to crawl under a pew or chair! ( as an aside) The last two weeks at church because of flu concerns they have been having everyone "wave" at someone during this part of the service. And last week the woman making this announcement said "maybe you just want to reach out and RUB someones shoulders"!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I don't think so! So see I am really not very outgoing!

7. If something were to happen to Garey (my husband), and I hope it never does, but just in case, I want someone to know I will go to a mission field somewhere until I am to old to be of assistance! There is a sweet woman named Margaret who is 90+ and who has gone to the Evangelical School for the Deaf in Puerto Rico, EVERY winter for the last, who knows how many years and just serves where she can! This is why I am trying to find somewhere to learn sign language! :)

For Tricia...I can't wait until you get to...

2008-03-10T16:47:00.004-04:00

Because I used to teach with Jeff Prentiss in NJ and because Janet ( Tricia's sister) was my daughter's field hockey coach I have felt very connected to Nate and Tricia since the beginning of this adventure.

Because I spent many months, many years ago, completely paralyzed from the eyes down (Guillian-Barre syndrome.. a long blog for another day!) on a vent, and a feeding tube too.. and because I raised five children and had two little ones while I was paralyzed...

I can't wait ....

... until you can sing (with new lungs) to Gwyneth Rose.

... til just mother and daughter have that special alone time in the middle of the night, even though you will be so tired.

... until you get to hold the baby without the tubes, gloves, gowns, masks and hospital smells.
Sweet baby smells are so wonderful, hospital smells, ah not so much. Okay not all baby smells are wonderful, but you get the idea.

...put Gwyneth in the car seat for the trip home from the hospital. This is not for the faint of heart! :)

...try giving her the first bath at home. Those little ones are very slippery and squirmy!

... until you all can go to church together for the first time.

...go shopping with the baby stroller, stopping over and over as total strangers want to know all about the baby.

...go back to the hospital months from now just the say hello to the staff who have cared for you both.

...take your dream vacation going back to Hawaii with Gwyneth, hmm a 15 hour flight with a toddler hmm .. maybe not!

...deal with all of the firsts... rolling over, pulling up, crawling, walking. Each victory for her is your victory too.

...until the day comes when you can tell her all about her miracle story and yours!

I really can't wait... but I know from experience that our answers often take time.. in the mean time I will keep praying and trusting along with you!

Continue to keep Nate and Tricia and Gwyneth in your prayers and visit Nate's blog for updates at www.cfhusband.blogspot.com

Class Trip to DC

2008-03-02T21:24:00.003-05:00

In the morning I will arrive at school before 7:00 am in order to meet the junior class for a three day trip to our nation's capital. I have always loved taking students on these trips, partly because I have always loved history. My children years ago started calling the roadside historical markers, hysterical markers, because they say I get hysterical every time I see one. :)

This trip we plan to visit the Holocaust museum, take a moonlight tour of all the major monuments, take a VIP tour of the capital, go on a tour of the Bureau of Printing and Engraving, see the National archives, quickly see the Smithonian air and space museum,walk to the Arlington cemetary and lastly tour the National Zoo, Pandas here we come!! There will also be some time for ice skating and of course eating and shopping!! There will probably be a prank or two pulled on the teacher! :( Remind me to tell you about the prank pulled last year! (Different school, different students) Be still my heart.

When I get home on Wednesday night, I will have walked many miles, laughed a great deal with some great kids and once again come away with the awe that I have everytime I visit the nation's capital. One of my favorite things to do while in DC is to take photos of all the places where I find the Word of God etched in stone throughout the city! I pray that the day NEVER comes when those words are chiseled out of those stones!!

Story of Me ... Part III

2008-02-24T20:34:00.005-05:00

Once my mother and I were back in Rhode Island it was important for my mother to establish a seemingly normal life for us. We moved into my grandmother's tenement house. Our little apartment was on the third floor. While I do not remember the incident, it has been said that either my "Nana" or my mother would bundle me up and place me in the carriage in the back yard. They would then hook a clothes line with a bell that went all the way up to the second and the third floors. That way they could leave me unattended and if I woke up or squawked the bell would ring and someone would climb down the stairs to make sure I was okay. Can't imagine anyone doing that today!

Thelma went to work at the Bulova watch company as the company nurse. I was farmed out to a wonderful older couple, Harold and Margaret Dickenson. Aunt Margaret and Uncle Harold, as I was to call them, were wonderful to me in the early years of my life. Between my Nana, my mother,Aunt Margaret and Uncle Harold, I was very much loved. Uncle Harold loved 'lawn bowling' and I vaguely remember him taking me on occasion to the old men's lawn bowling club.

My grandmother had two sisters... My aunt Dot and my aunt Edna. For reasons almost beyond my understanding, my aunt Edna and my grandmother did not speak to each other, this being due to a mantle clock which belonged to my great-grandmother. I do not remember which sister actually ended up with the clock at my great-grandmother's death, but I do know that the two never really were close after that. What a shame. My aunt Dot on the other hand was a very funny woman with many children and grand children who all lived close to one another in Central Falls, RI. This was the extended family I grew to love as a toddler.

From My List of Things to do before I turn 95...

2008-02-24T20:22:00.004-05:00

On the list was the following item... Learn to use my DVR! I am proud to post that with help from my son Dan and my son-in-law David, I have learned to push the (duh) record button and wa la... I am at the moment recording an episode of the Tudors!
Now that was not very hard, was it? So we will take this item from the list and find another for its place!
Thank you for understanding the plight of the technology challenged!

Tricia has been listed and activated for her transplant!

2008-02-23T19:01:00.011-05:00

As we continue to watch the Lawrenson's miracle unfold I have been thinking of this song.

"This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your holy presence living in me

This is my daily bread
This is my daily bread
Your very word spoken to me

And I I'm desperate for you
And I I'm I'm lost without you"

As I have followed their story I am aware that their desire is about so much more than medical miracles. My faith has been challenged in new ways as I have read this young couple's walk through the 'valley of the shadow'... trust!

Join the multitudes who are praying for Tricia's transplant and the baby's complete recovery. Pray also for the future donor and family.
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The Short Term Prophet... Haggai ... the rest of the story.

2008-02-19T21:46:00.003-05:00

When we left our prophet hero, he had just shown up to give the first of his messages. Remember we know his name means festival, or festive. Haggai would today be known as a one hit wonder. His entire ministry (as far as we are told) consisted of four messages given over the course of four months. 4 WORDS over 4 MONTHS! We know this because Haggai himself kept detailed dated entries on his blog! :)

When Haggai shows up he finds an alter built - but abandoned. He finds the beginning outline of a foundation for the rebuilding of the temple. The people tell him that is does not seem like a good time to build. Haggai tells them to get back to work! He chastises the children of Israel asking them why are they building their own houses before they build God's house.

Hmm seems like a good reminder for us! Don't give up keep working for God. Also seems like we should remember that we should proclaim when and while we can, as we never know how long we have to share.

President's Day Thoughts...

2008-02-18T09:42:00.004-05:00

This morning I am enjoying a day off of school because we are "celebrating" George Washington's and Abraham Lincoln's birthdays. I am not sure how we celebrate our early presidents anymore - other than the big sale at Target, Wal-Mart, all the car dealerships, and well you get the picture. Can a discounted item count as a celebration of someones life? Just wondering.

So here I sit in my robe and slippers celebrating. And my thoughts are somewhat fuzzy on this! In the olden days there were parades, speeches and such. In elementary school there were big assemblies with patriotic songs and recitations. We made silouettes of their heads... using black paper and scissors. I do not recall having the day off way back then, but we did celebrate! We talked about their lives and what they had accomplished for our country. Maybe somewhere they are still doing that. I am not sure.

Now in fairness, I have been to their homes... Pres. Washington's house in VA- Mt. Vernon... and Pres. Lincoln's house in Il. I have been to both of their memorials and will go again with the junior class in a few weeks.

I stand amazed that this great union is still electing presidents in much the same way as these two men were elected.

And so today I celebrate Pres. Washington, Pres. Lincoln ,all in between and since. Today I pray for our president and for our country.

My last act of celebration today just may have to be a quick run by Target... It would perhaps be unAmerican not to do so!

It is not to late to witness a miracle...

2008-02-17T21:48:00.000-05:00

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The Story of Me...Part II

2008-02-17T14:48:00.000-05:00

Once home from her almost visit to the back street abortionist, Thelma found herself still at odds with her own mother. (Flashback: Lottie and Harry Kay had adopted Thelma as an infant after their own tragic eight failed pregnancies. The couple doted on the independent baby. To say Thelma was spoiled was an understatement. As the only child of a somewhat older couple, Thelma soon learned how to take full advantage of her position in life.)

Flash forward... So now that Thelma found herself " in the family way" Lottie was angry, humiliated and just utterly devastated. How could this brilliant child who had a full ride to Brown Univerisity offered to her, how could she do this to her mother? Letters were written between the two and torn up, they were barely speaking to each other. (The details here are a bit sketchy as this writer was not made privy to even the basics of the story until sometime around 1993.) Somewhere along the way either through the family of the baby's father, or through friends of Thelma's, plans were made for Thelma to travel to New Hampshire to spend the rest of her "confinement". When she went and where she stayed and with whom are pieced together through faded memories of hushed conversations heard long ago.

Thelma had moved in with a woman who would become the baby's god mother. ( Her name escapes me at the moment which is partly why I feel the need to have the story written down somewhere before I forget all of it!)

How long Thelma was in New Hampshire before the birth, is not exactly known, but on November 14th, 1950 little Susan Marion made her entrance into the world. How she got her name is not exactly known but Thelma's last name was Kay, the baby's father was Haggerty, but somehow, for reasons known only to Thelma, Susan's birth certifcate states her name as Susan Marion Brasse.
(Only this past Christmas did I come across a picture designed for a bathroom with the images of a mirror, comb and brush and there in French, for all to see, was the word... Brasse... so yes, my last name was hairbrush- Susan Marion Hairbrush! She later told me she made it up! I guess she did!! Ha, no wonder I have always been so partial to the Veggie Tale song " Where is My Hairbrush?"
It seems obvious that Thelma did not stay in New Hampshire long, because I spent my 1st Christmas back in Rhode Island in the attic apartment directly above my Nana's. Once Lottie got her first look at me.. all was forgiven.. I now became the golden child to both my mother and my grandmother! (to be continued)

Cowboy and Indian Days....

2008-02-17T12:44:00.001-05:00

Just finished watching an old John Wayne western on TV and it got me to thinking... What ever happened to the carefree days of childhood? Now, I know that I am incredibly old ( at least to my high school students ). But when I was a child, it was always fun to play for hours away from the house. We would make up amazing tales of the Wild West. There were cowboys and indians and the Cavalry on horseback, of course. We would make forts in the woods and play for seemingly endless hours without anyone missing us. We made bows and arrows from twigs and sticks. We made pretend rifles from old pieces of lumber.We didn't have watches on of course, but we knew when to go home for dinner.

Grown ups did not worry about us and there was little or no fear of anyone harming us. People harming children was something that was not even in our national consciousness. When did we as a nation, or as a world, lose our innocence? When did it become almost impossible for children to play and pretend without a grown-up there to direct the play? How I long for my grand children to be able to experience the old Cowboy and Indian days of so long ago.

PS We should point out that the horse is a REAL horse only stuffed! The picture was taken at Storybook Land somewhere near Miami Florida, circa 1955! No really it is a REAL horse- posed and stuffed! ahhhhhhhh!

Unique Beginning.... The Story of Me ...Part I

2008-02-16T15:17:00.000-05:00

In the winter of 1950 a young nursing student from Pawtucket, Rhode Island,found herself heart sick in love with a dashing young Merchant Marine from Cranston. He came from money... his parents were less than thrilled that their son was dating a mill-workers daughter. Bernard and Edith Haggerty had two sons, David Frederick and Bruce. David wined and dined the tall lovely red head. They danced at Rhodes on the Putuxet. The weeks flew by and young Thelma found herself suddenly pregnant. When she shared the news with young David, he told her that she had made her bed and now she must lie in it.
Alone and frightened she turned to her own mother. Lottie Marion Kay had been recently widowed and without Harry at her side she took the approach of most mothers in those days... she told her daughter that she would have to be sent away and give the child up for adoption. Being a nursing student the young woman was quick to find out where she could receive a back room abortion. There was no Roe V Wade back then but Illegal abortions were not that unusal . So armed with an address and a bus ticket, Thelma made the trip into Providence and on a cold early spring night she got off the bus, walked up a back alley to the address she had beeen given and climbed the stairs of the old three story tenament building. As she approached the top flight she heard a very distinct voice say, "Thelma, if you do this, then who will you have to love you?" This so shocked her that she looked around to see who had spoken. Realizing that the voice was perhaps the voice of God, she began crying and turned and walked down the stairs, back down the alley and waited quietly for the bus. (to be continued...)

The Circuit!

2008-02-15T10:00:00.000-05:00

So I have now been to Curves twice! I have worked the circuit on my own two times and worked the circuit two times with the trainers. So my impressions... one should NOT attempt this without a sports bra! :) Especially if that one is over 50! HA!
Impression # 2 There are MANY teachers there all seemingly working off day to day frustrations from their jobs! I am not there for that purpose, but fall into that time slot I guess. I love my job but need to move more and lose weight! Impression # 3 I will also need to adjust eating habits! A box of Hot Tamales, a package of Vanilla Cream Wafers and Taco Bell will not offset a 30 minute workout!

Additionally, I have now purchased from Sam's Club a set of yoga pants, sports bras, and tank tops all made for Bally's gym- how ironic is that! So I have the gear- so here I go! I will keep you appraised of my future successes!

This should be a hoot!

Susan

Post Valentine Post

2008-02-15T09:10:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was Valentine's Day! A day of romance and love. But this morning as I reflect on yesterday, I am keenly aware that my husband makes almost everyday like Valentine's Day. Yesterday morning he surprised me at the crack of dawn with a hysterical singing card which I loved and a box of chocolates which, I wll enjoy, but certainly do not NEED! I found him a sweet card and an itunes card for his shuffle.

But seriously, I am so spoiled. Everyday... this is a man who wakes me up (repeatedly) rubs my back, makes and serves my coffee, starts my car, carries my belongings to the car! Wow! Am I dreaming? Since we married he has spoiled me non-stop. So when Valentine's Day comes there is no need for a big hoop te do-- I beg NOT TO BE TAKEN TO DINNER! Who needs the crowds, the bad service and the inflated prices? So last night we enjoyed Taco Bell, the evening news with Charlie Gibson, Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune, just like most every other night! Now THAT is Valentine's Day for me! I love you Garey!

PS.. This morning he is having a biopsy taken of his tongue. So if you would like to pray that would be most appreciated!

The Short Term Prophet...

2008-02-12T21:38:00.000-05:00

In the morning I have been asked to give the devotions to the staff at the Christian school where I teach. My assigned topic is on the prophet Haggai. I have learned so much from my study of this minor prophet. Haggai is one of the Bible characters about whom we are not given much background. His name means festive or festival! He was part of the prophet team of Malachi, Zachariah and Haggai. His entire ministry took place with four months, and four messages. WE know he was a detail man as he dated everyone of his prophesies.

Haggai comes into the middle of a mess. The Jews were coming back from exile. Cyrus had allowed some to leave captivity- he sent them with wood to rebuild the temple. SO the children of Israel go back to Jerusalem they are all happy- we're free we have the lumber from Home Depot or Lowes . They build an altar, the lay out a foundation and then they start to have trouble with the neighbors. ( The Samaritans ) They were having trouble with some of the decrees of government.. so like many of us they laid back... they stopped showing up at the job sight. Then they started to borrow the special temple lumber and they start building their own houses and they have forgotten the temple of God. So in comes Haggai... Da da da DA!!

The first thing the people say to Him is "Ah, we don't think it is the time to build right now!"

Ouch....

So basically that is the start of my message, and as I am just a woman... I will be speaking ... not preaching! :)

A New Beginning Again

2008-02-11T21:31:00.000-05:00

Today I joined Curves! I joined, paid my money and must now wait until Wednesday to get my first official tour of the little circle of machines! Now it has been 15 or more years since I have joined a gym. And why have I taken this jump? Because my youngest daughter is getting married in July. July! I just found out two weeks ago and now believe I need to slim down and tone up and well anything I can do to not look like the grandmother of bride!

So I have screwed up my courage, signed on the dotted line and joined a pinky lavendar gym! I cannot believe I did this,,, here goes!

I will let you know on Wednesday how it went!

Is it really possible to lose 20 lbs in 5 months?

A matter of perspective

2008-02-05T19:59:00.000-05:00

On any given day it is our perspective which colors our world. Through which lens will we see our world today? Today is Super Tuesday... voters are casting their votes in 22 state primaries today. But here in NC we do not have a primary until May 6th and so today my voter perspective is a different shade than that of those who will be voting today.

One leader, many followers

2008-02-04T23:01:00.000-05:00

At the risk of sounding like Andy Rooney of 60 minutes fame... Have you ever wondered why some people will follow a religious leader almost anywhere? Have you noticed that people are willing to place themselves in harms way to follow without question? Now there is certainly safety in numbers and if I were being led into the desert I would certainly not want to be alone, but why do we give up our minds and our sense of disernment to at times follow a man instead of following the Good Shepherd? Just wondering...

One woman,one book, one Sunday afternoon...

2008-02-04T20:52:00.000-05:00

As I place my first blog into cyber space I want to recommend a book: The Shack by William P. Young. This was a book I was drawn to with no knowledge of the content. I did not know if I was going to read fiction or self-help. Book store workers were sure I was looking for a book on a basketball player named The Shaq. I did not know anyone who had read the book, but I knew I must! Saturday night my daughter and son-in-law found the book in a city an hour or so away.

I could not wait to get home on Sunday morning and start reading! I began shortly after noon and by three o'clock I had read all 240+ pages. I have been changed deep in my core being. Without wishing to spoil the plot for you just let me say that the book will answer many questions you may have had about WHY? WHY God did you allow-----? You may not agree theologically with every point, but the story will give you a new insight as to how God sees you and how you see God! Get this book!